Haven't eaten yet today and I don't know if I will. Not out of choice, I really don't want to fast and fuck up my metabolism any more. It's not like it's beyond my ability to go get a yoghurt out of the fridge, I just think it's the swallowing it I'd have trouble with. Which is odd for me. What normally motivates me to not eat or restrict is the fear of how bad I feel after I eat. I'm pathalogically avoidant - I live in the future, in potential consequences. Right now I'm not at all sure why I can't eat what I could have done yesterday. The power of this disorder over my thoughts and behaviour never fails to baffle me.
I've been reading an article about the sin of gluttony. It's interesting how it used to be one of the worst, if not the worst sin but these days we're more worried about wrath and lust. Gluttony has evolved, too. It's fundamentally about favouring animalistic, physical satisfaction of the body over spiritual concerns. However, words we now think have a positive or neutral meaning such as delicacy, luxury, gourmand used to be much more perjorative. The quality of delicacy has come to mean sensitivity, demureness, tact, refinement. However, "delicacy initially meant the quality of being addicted to sensual pleasure and encompassed both lust and gluttony, but mostly gluttony". So really, the sin of gluttony can encompass both gross over-consumption of food, or simply taking too much pleasure in luxurious and over-wrought cuisine.
To avoid the sin of gluttony, many people jump too far in the opposite direction and we have fasting saints and ascetics. However, Religion has been known to condemn this extreme, too. I tend to agree, there's a moderate grey area and extremes are anorexic black and white thinking. Gluttony and abstinence might not even be seen as opposites in this sense, they're both excesses of the body which place unseemly emphasis on food. I certainly consider anorexia my own form of gluttony. (I'm not sure it's exactly sinful though).
I do think the fasting saints and modern anorectics who (and I'm guilty of this myself) deny the body are missing the point somewhat. In the past people percieved a seperation of body and spirt and the spirit was definately higher in the hiarachy. In Modern cartesian philosophy we have a tendancy to replace spirit with intellect but to the same ends, we denegrate and distrust the body and only value the intangible other. Why must we be so judgemental of the body, why are we so dualistic in our thinking? I'm not really arguing against mind/body dualism at all. I'm just wondering why throughout history humans have assumed this hierachy with the body at the bottom? We go on about "Sins of the Flesh" but what about the sins of the mind? I don't think the body is intrinsically worse than our other component parts.
Not sure where I'm going with this, I just find my reading going off down interesting avenues and I tend to trace it all back to EDs in my mind. For the record I'm coming at it from an academic standpoint, I'm not a believer in the biblical take on sins as such.